This weekend was the 38th annual Marine Corps Marathon.
Not only did I know of people running it, but was bombarded with posts about the race through fellow running blogs I follow.
And it brought to mind the question; will I ever run a full marathon?
Let’s be honest, it didn’t take this weekend’s race to make me ponder the idea of running the highly esteemed 26.2 miles. I play with the idea often.
Especially as I get closer to my half marathon in November. I could just keep training. Why stop at 13.1? Technically I’d be halfway there… Technically I could just go straight from my half marathon-training schedule into a full marathon-training schedule…
And after November 223rd I’ll have run three half marathons. Isn’t a full marathon the next step? I’m sure it will offer me all the benefits, joys, and rewards that I find in long distance running. I’m positive I’d find enormous pride in running across a finish line that took me to a new level or running. But will I do it?
I don’t know.
I can’t seem to wrap my mind around the amount of dedication it takes to run a full marathon. It’s a commitment that one shouldn’t take lightly.
And I worry that I wouldn’t be happy training for that long. I worry that without complete conviction to run a full marathon I’d find training to be a burden. And the last thing I want is to burn out my passion for running.
… and what if I get hurt again?
That’s always a fear sitting in the back of my head on every run. How do my feet feel? How does my knee feel? Am I listening to my body? Am I pushing too hard?
I would do anything to avoid the long, heart breaking, and expensive 7 months I spent in and out of the doctors’ offices at the beginning of this year.
A full marathon would obviously be asking for trouble.
But then again… What if those 17-mile runs inspire me more than I can predict? What if I find new enthusiasm for my sport by raising the bar? What if a full marathon would ignite an internal drive I don’t have now?
Injury, long training months, and ups-and-downs in motivation are all part of running. I’m not saying I’m going to sign up for a marathon tomorrow, or that I ever will. I’m just saying that idea is there… and the drive to isn’t far behind.